Amma & Hannu

I have never left hannu to stay without me during nights. Day time we both have to adjust as me being working. But leaving him with granny even for a night was unimaginable for me. As my parents were living few streets away from us, I used to bring him home whenever I am back from work. But now my parents shifted to a far away place this isn't feasible.

Last week my mil was not well and i had to take hannu to amma's place for a stay of 2 days. Spending that night without hannu was really bad. Can't ask appa to bring him home that evening and take him the next day. If I ask he will do but I did not want to bother him and strain hannu also. The next evening when I went to amma's home to take hannu back home, hannu's expression relieved how happy was he in seeing me. I asked my 20 months munna 'Whom did u sleep with hannu? Didnt you search for amma?' His replied 'Amma appechu'(Amma office. He is saying Amma you were in office so I had to spend my time with granny). I was so touched. How adjusting my lil darling is.

P.S I am working mother with full of guilty for leaving my munna at home. And I think i can write endless posts about our separation feelings :(

"M" changes life

Marriage and Motherhood are the sweetest happenings in one's life. But when it happened to me I wasn't aware that this would change my life on the whole.
I feel like I have lost myself into it. I admit that I love both "M" but sometimes this strange feeling comes peeping its head out.
I read a lot before marriage. After marriage it became 50% and after hannu's birth it has been reduced to 10%. Much more pathetic is i have lost interest in watching TV. I wasn't a TV addict before. But I had my own interests to watch. With ILS around and soaps running regularly, gone are those days where I sit and surf channels. Hubby has no interest in this tv and movies stuff. Much to my compulsion we end up in going 2-3 movies per year. May be these responsibilities of "M" is making me fell so. Ah! it would be nice to have someone to take up all the responsibilities and I enjoy only the other part of "M". Nice dream :)

P.S. The reason for this post is I watched one hour of 'dumdumdum' movie in TV after very very long time without any disturbance. ILS were in the terrace chatting, sweet hubby was singing lullaby for hannu(it takes almost 1hr to make hannu sleep, hubby took that responsibility that day) and I was cutting veggies and watching TV. I wanted to watch the whole movie but the next day alarm for 3 am flashed in me to switch off the TV. Anyway felt like gone back to my space.

Chee Chee Nana ellai

Hannu's favourite word is Nana ellai (Its not nice). From food to watching TV whatever activity, if he doesnt like it or if he doesnt want to do it anymore he will say "Nana ellai". Yesterday when i gave him banana to eat, he said with disgusting expression 'Chee chee nana ellai' ma. I was quite surprised and wondering where he is learning these sort of words and expressions from. Again in the evening Hannu was playing and all of a sudden he took some paper and put it straight into his mouth.
I took the paper out of his mouth and said 'Chee Chee. Dont eat whatever you find Hannu'. After saying this only a sudden flash hit me. Oh from me only he has got this habit of using word 'Chee Chee'. I have been using this word casually. How observing he is. I warned myself to be more careful hereafter with my lil toddler around.